When A Soldier Cries

When A Soldier Cries

 

A soldier does not cry in the day

A soldier does not cry during a fight.

While the battle rages

The soldier carries on.

Hand maneuvering his hot weapon.

Comrades falling before and behind

The blood of his friends

 – his brothers –

Sweat on his face

Mud takes away his identity.

Just a man in green

Fighting for his country’s ideal.

 

A soldier does not cry in the dark

Or even in the quiet

Between rounds of mortar and fire.

He does not think about politics

Or the bureaucrats back home.

There’s one things a soldier fights for

His own life and the man on his side.

 

Than comes a day

The battling is done

Loss of the life tallied up

Bodies counted

Letters sent

In the silence

In privacy unbroken

By the outside world.

That is the time

When a soldier cries.

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Comfort Me In Pain


It took me a while, but I found you,
And no one else holds my heart in their hand like you do.
Friends might think I am lost and out of my mind.
But with you in my heart I am everything but lost.
Is it too late for me, now that you hold her in your arms?
It seems like you would not had chosen her if I would had found you earlier.
I know you are not the same for me like you are for others.
I see you in another light.
Can you forgive me the doubts still running through my mind?
I lay open my heart for you.
Because I know you take care of her, you will be gentle.
That is all I want and need to know.
Knowing you will do so fills my heart with love and gives me the strength to keep my head up.
I just wish you could lay your arms around, when I’m lying weak on the floor.
So far your spiritual presence doesn’t seem enough, physical comfort is well needed.
I know you have something up for me and for now it seems I cannot be patient.
Why you let me wait here for the one who will give me love and comfort, for the one who will be there for me and strong enough to carry my burdens for a while, when I am too weak to walk around with them.
Is it because it took me so long?
Did you know that I will find my way to you?
My love for you is different,
I know you are around and somehow I have the feeling that I knew it all the time, just did not want to see it.
But it is clear for me now.
Things start to make sense to me.
Even if your ways are strange in some way.
You bring pain and heartache to me, let me go through betrayals and frustrations and even that you bring joy and luck into my life, it seems that my life is harder than the lives of others.
Why had to go through this tragedy?
Why you still let me suffer from this day?
When will be my time to find peace inside?
When will I be able to let go, completely?
When will this hate die away?
Hate I stored deep inside my heart. It does not feel like my hate is a dying breed, it is more like a rising breed.
When will you send me that special angel, I once thought I found, who will take care of me?
Don’t let me standing here alone.
The strength in me is breakable, I am vulnerable.
I am just a woman in need.
I cannot give you more than my heart and that love I feel for you.
Come and complete me while I am here on my knees mourning for the ones I lost.
Dry my tears, hold my shaking body, clear my confused mind.

You’re Gone

You’re Gone

As a single,
Solemn teardrop falls,
I silently think,
Of the angel that calls.

Because you are gone now,
Once again I’m broken,
And I can’t talk about this,
My heart won’t open.

I can’t believe,
That you actually let go,
I go over in my head,
On what you taught me, everything I know.

I try to picture your smile,
But it fades away,
And how much I miss you,
Words could not say.

I try to remember the good times,
But I’m overwhelmed with grief,
And you can’t come back,
You are in a forever-eternal sleep.

I say your name,
And my voice just breaks,
I wish I was in your place,
And that you were still awake.

I really miss you,
Love you from the bottom of my heart,
And already here with out you,
I am falling apart.

I hope you are happy now,
That you are pain free,
And I will always remember like you said to me,
That you are watching over me.

R.I.P. Jennifer Crow

Losing

We are now wholly, yea! more than wholly devastated.

The band of presumptuous nations, they raving trumpets,

The sword oily with blood, the thundering cannon-royal

Have consumed the fruits of all our sweat and travail.

The towers stand in flames, the church is overturned,

The town hall lies in ruins, the stalwart are hacked to bits,

The maidens are deflowered, and everywhere we look

Fire, plague and death oppress the heart and soul.

Without You Here, Jen

Without You Here
Although you are gone,
Your spirit still lives on.
We miss you and cry
With every day that goes by.
Knowing that you’re in a better place
Just brings a smile to my face.
I wish you were still here with me,
But I know that can never be.
I always wonder why you had to go
And this is something I will never know.
I hope to see you very soon.
But for now I’ll just keep wishing to the moon.
Eternal Flame
R.I.P. Jennifer Crow

You will never be forgotten

3/11/84 – 2/12/08

Where Angels Collide

Where Angels Collide
You’re not my kind, so I think the worst
You are the one that I fear the most
Why are you so afraid of me?
I cry for help but my mouth is shut
I long for you but I hide the thoughtDon’t be afraid to live,
For you can draw you on line
I can lend you mine

I want you to see how great you are
And the power you have built in you
You’re more than just someone
You’re the answer we need
And in battle hope is what we bleed

So bury your soul in mine
I’ll protect you, I promise
And everything will be fine

You’re all the same sacred miracle inside
So fight for what’s right in a world
Where its angels collide

Why won’t you leave? I walk alone
This world I have is just my own
You are not alone in this place

I save myself, I leave you behind
Why should I care? And why should I mind?

Because we’re all just one big
Name that calls for justice
One that guides our reign

I want you to see how great you are
And the power you have built in you
You’re more than just someone
You’re the answer we need
And in battle hope is what we bleed

So bury your soul in mine
I’ll protect you, I promise
And everything will be fine

You’re all the same sacred miracle inside
So fight for what’s right in a world
Where its angels collide

We are the truth, we are the light
We are the saviors of our kind
We will survive, ’cause we will rise
And with our voices we’ll arise

So bury your soul in mine
I’ll protect you, I promise
And everything will be fine

You’re all the same sacred miracle inside
So fight for what’s right in a world…

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